Winds of change

It reminds me the song sung by Scorpion, Winds of Change. Somehow, the wind is breezing through now. I never thought I would decide to start writing a blog, but since I have no one to share my heart talk, I've decided to write one today.

Lately has been a very dramatic moments for me. This phase where some call it mid ge crisis, is happening. Way too early for a kid like me.

I somehow felt I'm losing contact with everyone on this living planet. I felt so lonely.

I know I hurt someone. I have no choice. Looking at another side, I felt it's a wise decision to leave her as I am moving towards some place which I am not familiar. Im owing bank a lot of money. I am nearly to bankrupt. I dont really what can I do now except pushing her away.

Some might think I'm a player to do so, especially my family, but in actual fact, how can I go after another when I have to cut my meals to save myself some coins.

I felt like crying everynight, but no one listen. In office, no one was there. I am stuck in the middle of nowhere. Have you felt should you take lunch or not? To save money, you cant take cos colleague all quite rich. I dont take, I'll be alone in office. Sometimes I just don't feel to be in office.

I really dont know what to do anymore. Ive tried my best but things just dont work out right. Just my luck.